feelings

why do I always let my emotions get the best of me, why do I think of memories that I know i will just end up wanting back, why do I put my heart out there when I know that most people just want to hurt it.
Ugh I am so confused and just want certain things back so bad. Why do people grow apart and change? Why do people move on and find better people? And why are they always the people that mean so much. I want friendships back I have lost, I want trust back that I no longer have, I want to be able to tell certain people my life, I want to be able to give out my heart and not have it broken.
I hate getting so worked up over these things, but they truly do matter so much to me.
i felt like the only way to get this out was to write.

i want things back to normal!

peace && love,
Alyssa