What has our world come to?

When I look around, I wish to see peace, love,friendships, acts of kindness and sharing. But it seems as if all i see is war, hate, fighting, and cruelness.
When I see this, It makes me wonder...What has our world come to?
Why dont people get to know people before judging them? Or why are people so racist and pregedice.
I dont understand, at all. and I hate it.
I was never raised to be racist, or judge someone, or be so mean. And it hurts me that others werent raised the same.

I believe we are all broken people in some condition, living in a broken world. We all experience pain and we can all relate to questions and moments we get stuck in. At the same time we are created to be known and to be loved and expierence love.
Evceryone needs someone to love, and everyone needs someone to love them.

Love, and in return, you will be loved.

With great love,
Alyssa

helping hand

I feel everyone needs one, someone to go to, to cry to, to laugh with.
Though I hate trying to be the helping hand, and no one grabbing on to my hand.
I hate trying to help guide someone, but they don't let me in to try.
It just hurts, it really hurts alot.

Its like they don't want to accept your help. Because there are "better" people out there for them.
and I'm fine with having someone else to talk to, it would just be nice, if they were grateful for your help.

Happy Thanksgiving though.
Be thankful for everything you have, because it could easily be gone.

I am thankful for my family
I am thankful for good people in my life
I am thankful for best friends
I am thankful for life
I am thankful for being able to feel invisible

With all my love,
Alyssa

funny bestfriends & good quotes

one of my favorite quotess:
Thoughts lead on to purposes; purposes go forth in action; actions form habits; habits decide character; and character fixes our destiny

i lovee it!
this was just a quicky post.
hope all is well for everyone!

with all my love,
Alyssa!

p.s.
my bestfriend is so funny :)
lovee her alot!

lessons.

Let life teach, let love into your life, and let knowledge enter your mind.
I learn something new truly everyday, and each time i learn something important, i try to better myself with it.

I finished the book "the perks of being a wallflower" and found this quote towards the end.

"It is great to be able to listen and be a shoulder to someone, but what if they need the arms of you? You cant put every ones lives ahead of yours to count it as love, you just cant, you have to do things, like take their hands when a slow song comes up for a change, or be the one to ask someone on a date, or tell people what you need, or what you want, and when you are able to do those things, that's when it counts as love."-perks of being a wallflower

I think in so many ways I am like charlie in this book, I listen and im the shoulder, but im never the one to put out my arms. Im never the one to tell someone what i want, or need, i just see what others need and want. For a long time, i really thought this was the right thing, but i think to be able to tell others what i want and need is important. Because if they can then be the shoulder for you, you know there is love and friendship between you too.
This book made me look at life with a different point of view and im so glad I read it. Next im going to start either Into the Wild, The catcher in the Rye, pieces, or brave new girl. Either way, i think i will find myself lost in another book. They make me forget about the problems in life, and just see the beauty that lay beneath the pages. now that's a good thing in life.
Goodnight.

All my love,
Lyssa

A great day

Today was such a good day. Feeling like you can do anything makes things worth all the pain. Accomplishing something that someone told you that you would never accomplish is worth all the tears. Taking time to find your true friends, is worth all the time you were ever lonely, and finding your true identy is worth not knowing who you really are in life.

I have the greatest friends, family, sport, coaches, roles models, and heros a girl could ask for, and when I say that, I mean it more then any of you know.

I love living life care free. and not caring about anything. Not caring about who likes you, and who doesnt. Not caring about any drama that surrounds you, and not having to worry about anything. I guess in a way its ignoring it, but it makes me happy, and thats all I want in life.

i lovee my gym friends. you mean the whole world to me!

with all my love,

fergiee

I dont regret...

I don't regret trying to be someone I wasn't at one point
because it taught me that I love who I really am and don't need to live by any ones opinion but my own

I dont regret being friends with people that were not good to me
Because it taught me to find more honest, more loving, and overall more real people.

I dont regret letting go of people I thought were great
Because it helped me realize there are better people out there for you.

I dont regret giving in on stupid things I didnt believe in
Because it taught me im stronger then I ever imagined I was.

I dont regret standing up for what I believe in
Because it taught me that is the only way to possibly make a change.

I dont regret being a brat to people that didnt deserve it
Because it taught me what goes around comes around, and I know now, karma is not enjoyable

And last I dont regret making mistakes
Because it has taught me to learn, grow, and move on.

I am a good person, and I know that. and all im trying to do is learn and grow.
I really think that instead of regreting, you should look at it and see what you have gained instead of lost.

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry
Show it you have a thousand reasons to smile"

With all my love,
Alyssa

change.

Change is around us everyday, but we don't notice it until its the change that hurts or affects us. It may be in a friend, or a family member, or yourself, or even your everyday life. It may be big, it may be small, but its the kind that hurts the most. I found that sometimes if you don't look back, you think you wont remember, but when you finally have enough courage to turn around and look at the past, it all comes back, and its like being hit in the face with a huge brick. It hurts, a lot. And no matter how hard you try to let go, there will always be that little piece with you in your heart.

Like loosing a friend for example. Thats a change that most people have experienced, and its a change that hurts alot. Because you can chose to hate or love them, and either way, you still wont find your answer. The hate process sometimes is used as an excuse to heal, and vent, when really all your doing is missing the person, and wishing they were still around. And then to love them is just as hard, when they dont love you back, because you give everything in your heart, yet its still not quite enough for them. So either way, you loose.

Ive learned, you just have to try your best to forget. And if there comes a time to forgive, just forgive, the worst that will happen is they will do they same thing, but if they do, your stronger the second time around, and your strong enough to say no when they come running back again.

What goes around will always come back around. People will get punishments they deserve and learn lessons they need to learn.
We are all only human and all make mistakes, and mistakes are fine. But after a mistake you need to learn and grow. And after that if you do it again, then it is no longer a mistake. it is a careless effort to be better, and learn.

Another kind of change can be something such as a move. Which once you experience, nothing is ever the same. For so long, i didnted have the courage to look at this place I grew up, and the place I called home. I was scared it would bring back to many good memories, and I was right. but when I looked at this, it actually made me want to have a place I loved calling home. It made me want to accept the fact that im no longer a 702 and that I do live in mesa az. It made me want to build great memories to look back on that I loved, it made me want to find those few great friends that I know will be there in the long run, But most of all it made me want to be able to say, "Mesa is my home"
I am learning everyday, that you wont always find great people, and that there are always going to be the people that dont care no matter how hard you try, or how much you try to help. And you cant and never will change those kind of people.
"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk disappointment. But risks must be taken because the greatest risk in life is to risk in nothing. The person who risks nothing is nothing."-author unknown
I am going to take risk with change, and try and always find the best in each and every change that happens in my life. Always stay true to yourself.

With all my love,
Alyssa

One of those days

Today was just one of those days, where no matter what, nothing can go right. I honestly wanted to just cry all day, and then I realized, crying does nothing but make it harder to get through the day.

I learned that there are always going to be those people that no matter what just want to bring you down. They will do or say anything that they know will hurt you. and I cant stand those people. They need to learn life doesn't always revolve around them, and that sometimes its okay for others to be better then them at things. Everyone has talent in something, and there is always going to be someone that is just a little better then you at everything. There will always be a person that is smarter, nicer, funnier, prettier, skinnier etc. and that's okay.

We are all different and all have something we are great at. So don't let anyone bring your confidence down in that specialty of your, no matter if they are better then you or not at it.

I also learned, there is always going to be a helping hand. If its a friend, parent,adult,teacher etc. there is always someone. I am so thankful for the person I had to help me get through today, because he is a great person. When I sit and think about everything that person has done for me, I really notice how big of an impact he has made on my life. He has taught me to be brave, confident, bold, different,kind, honest, diligent, trustworthy, and caring. I have been taught by him, that nothing is impossible if you put time and effort into it. And that no matter how hard life can get, you just have to hold on.

I know I will continue to look at this person as a role model the rest of my life, So thank you so much. Everything you have done means more then you could ever understand.

I am done writing for tonight. I am going to go lay in my bed and just relax and read my book "perks of being a wallflower" until my eyes close and I go to sleep.

I am happy today has come to an end, so I can have a fresh start tomorrow.
Goodnight

Feeling grateful to or appreciative of someone or something in your life actually attracts more of the things that you appreciate and value into you life. -Christiane Northrup

All my love,

Alyssa

Bestfriends birthday

Tomorrow is my very bestfriends 15th birthday, and it breaks my heart so much that I cant be there with him. Honestly that kid deserves anything and everything he asked for. He is the sweetest/funniest/most caring kid you will meet in your whole life and probably has the biggest heart of any 15 year old boy.

It is crazy to think its almost been 14 years with him. I hate how fast we are growing up, looking back I can still remember all those little kid memories. Like the ghost house, or the ant tree, lemon ade stands, the lake, slug fights, playing pool, fighting over who was taller, bossing him around at the park, walks around the neighborhood, halloween, birthday parties, the list could go on forever. I have almost never been without a bestfriend because hes been there since i was just 11 months. && its crazy to think I havent missed a birthday since. thats 14 years baby. He is honestly the perfect definition for true bestfriend, and I dont care if anyone disagrees, because I know he is. I love you bronson cade ashjian.

another thing...

i want to live in vegas so bad. i want to go to homecoming dances and see my bestfriends everyday && never miss any birthdays and have lots of fun friends and be able to be me everyday and not have to look forward to just summer and winter breaks

I miss that place so much. seeing everyone grow up and move on makes me wonder what life would of been like. i dont want to be negative, i just wish i could spend my high school years there, because i know they would be soo so different. I want to go to a dance with my bestfriend as my date, I want to have a huge group of friends to hang out with every weekend, I want to go to school with people i have known practicially my whole life. i just miss the 702 life.

now thats home for me

I learn something new everyday.

I learned, people push you to your limits so you can be successful and acomplish your goals. If they just sit back and dont help, they dont care enough about you to get you where you want to be in life.
And just on another note , i seriously love my coach kristin. She is one of the most amazing, hard working, caring people I have ever met. She gives everything shes got on a daily basis and never gives up on me. She helps me when im down and she is one of the biggest role models ive got. I really dont know where i would be without here.
thank you for always being there for me. it means more then i could ever express in words. && i know the only reason you push me is because you believe in me and want me to be anything i want to in life.

my quote for the day...
Standing on the fringes of life offers a unique perspective. but there comes a time to see what it looks like from the dance floor.

lovve always,
Alyssa

life

There's always a little truth behind every just kidding,
a little curiosity behind every just wondering,
a little knowledge behind every i don't know,
and a little emotion behind every i don't care.

never lie to yourself when you know the truth, because after all the lies, you yourself will not know the truth or the lies.

Sometimes it takes alot to realize that being different is okay, and standing out is good for you. I never want to be scared to be different and be scared to be myself, because if I'm not myself, no one can truly love the real me.
I realized this weekend also that you should take the time to get to know people before you make a judgement. I became friends with 2 girls I probably never would of even thought about being friends with, and I'm glad I opened my eyes. I actually am alot like each of them, and I'm glad I got to spend time with them.

other then those few things nothing really is new, except i miss my 2 best friends dearly. sometimes i wonder how i go through some of my rough days without them. I love you guys so much, but you both already know that!

oh && me my mom and sister made really cute tie dye shirts, it was so fun and i was happy i got to spend time with them, I am so grateful for the wonderful family I have!

I need to go to bed, but that is difficult when you took a 3 hour nap.
good night you readers :)

with all my love,
Alyssa

peace and love.

feelings

why do I always let my emotions get the best of me, why do I think of memories that I know i will just end up wanting back, why do I put my heart out there when I know that most people just want to hurt it.
Ugh I am so confused and just want certain things back so bad. Why do people grow apart and change? Why do people move on and find better people? And why are they always the people that mean so much. I want friendships back I have lost, I want trust back that I no longer have, I want to be able to tell certain people my life, I want to be able to give out my heart and not have it broken.
I hate getting so worked up over these things, but they truly do matter so much to me.
i felt like the only way to get this out was to write.

i want things back to normal!

peace && love,
Alyssa

growing up

The other day I was just sitting and thinking about life, and I discovered how it takes so long to gain a friendship, but it can be so easily lost. I thought about so many friends it took me so long to trust and become close with and it seems like each of them I suddenly lost so quickly. One in particular though. I was just looking through old pictures and seeing all those amazing memories makes me miss that friendship so much. I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reasons, and that you loose people to find better people, but that person really was an amazing person/friend that taught me so much I now know about life. They made me such a strong person and a big reason I am so independent today. But then in many ways they have treated me badly when I gave them more then one chance, but I guess in every friendships there are problems. I just wish in some way I could find the courage in my heart to try and gain it back, but I feel like even when I do, it will just be one of those things that never goes back. Times change and people change, we all grow up and more on and I guess that just happened with me and this person. And I really do hate having to say that I have lost this person.
Its crazy how when you used to see these people you were welcomed by big hugs and smiles and now it seems like you && that person do everything to avoid running into each other. It just makes me think who my true friends really are.

But then there are friendships that last life times and never get old or break. I have two friends that i strongly believe I will stay friends with my whole life. Because no matter how often we talk, we just always pick up where we left off. and I love that.

Always stay true to yourself and always do what you believe is the right thing, and you will go far in life.

Peace && Love,
Alyssa

Susses!

I learned today, that you cant accomplish anything unless you fail at least once. You cant be truly happy until you have hurt. You cant love, if you have never hated, and you cant learn if you don't listen. I learned recently also that not everyone is going to love you, but the one person that should always love you is yourself. You cant get anywhere in life if you cant love yourself enough to believe in yourself. Be confident, be brave, bold, trustworthy,loving, kind and honest. And always remember the sky is the limits. We have no limits in life, only creations we make in our minds.
A trying time is never a time to quit trying, Live by it!

This was what I was talking about how I always have something to say, I'm beginning to like this blog thing alot. even though I know I don't have alot of readers. ha ha, well I better go take a shower and go to bed. Its already almost 11! where does all my time go I often wonder?!?!

Yay tomorrow I'm going to the gymnastics tour!
I'm really hoping i get to meet both Shawn Johnson && Nastia Liukin. That would be like a dream come true! They are such big role models to me.

I'm done writing for the night.
Peace && Love,
Alyssa

UGHH!

I am trying to figure out how to make this whole blog thing work, and im not getting very far. Im blog challenged. I have homework I really should be doing && bestfriends I should be calling. I miss my two best friends, && I miss my linnea! she is the greatest. no questions asked. She is the reason i am half the person I am. LOVEE YOU LINNEA.
Peacee && love,
Alyssaaa

First blogg!

Well im kind of new to this whole blog thing, but I thoght I would get one cause I always seem to have something to say. My name is Alyssa, Im a 14 year old, freshman && gymnast. Im almost always at gym, its my second home bacially. I lovee it and would never give it up for the world. I was born & raised in the 702(VEGAS!) but I live in Arizona now. pretty much thats it about me! Oh and I have the best friends and family anyone could ask for! I guess I will write for you guys later :)
Peacee && Lovee,
Alyssa