life

There's always a little truth behind every just kidding,
a little curiosity behind every just wondering,
a little knowledge behind every i don't know,
and a little emotion behind every i don't care.

never lie to yourself when you know the truth, because after all the lies, you yourself will not know the truth or the lies.

Sometimes it takes alot to realize that being different is okay, and standing out is good for you. I never want to be scared to be different and be scared to be myself, because if I'm not myself, no one can truly love the real me.
I realized this weekend also that you should take the time to get to know people before you make a judgement. I became friends with 2 girls I probably never would of even thought about being friends with, and I'm glad I opened my eyes. I actually am alot like each of them, and I'm glad I got to spend time with them.

other then those few things nothing really is new, except i miss my 2 best friends dearly. sometimes i wonder how i go through some of my rough days without them. I love you guys so much, but you both already know that!

oh && me my mom and sister made really cute tie dye shirts, it was so fun and i was happy i got to spend time with them, I am so grateful for the wonderful family I have!

I need to go to bed, but that is difficult when you took a 3 hour nap.
good night you readers :)

with all my love,
Alyssa

peace and love.

feelings

why do I always let my emotions get the best of me, why do I think of memories that I know i will just end up wanting back, why do I put my heart out there when I know that most people just want to hurt it.
Ugh I am so confused and just want certain things back so bad. Why do people grow apart and change? Why do people move on and find better people? And why are they always the people that mean so much. I want friendships back I have lost, I want trust back that I no longer have, I want to be able to tell certain people my life, I want to be able to give out my heart and not have it broken.
I hate getting so worked up over these things, but they truly do matter so much to me.
i felt like the only way to get this out was to write.

i want things back to normal!

peace && love,
Alyssa

growing up

The other day I was just sitting and thinking about life, and I discovered how it takes so long to gain a friendship, but it can be so easily lost. I thought about so many friends it took me so long to trust and become close with and it seems like each of them I suddenly lost so quickly. One in particular though. I was just looking through old pictures and seeing all those amazing memories makes me miss that friendship so much. I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reasons, and that you loose people to find better people, but that person really was an amazing person/friend that taught me so much I now know about life. They made me such a strong person and a big reason I am so independent today. But then in many ways they have treated me badly when I gave them more then one chance, but I guess in every friendships there are problems. I just wish in some way I could find the courage in my heart to try and gain it back, but I feel like even when I do, it will just be one of those things that never goes back. Times change and people change, we all grow up and more on and I guess that just happened with me and this person. And I really do hate having to say that I have lost this person.
Its crazy how when you used to see these people you were welcomed by big hugs and smiles and now it seems like you && that person do everything to avoid running into each other. It just makes me think who my true friends really are.

But then there are friendships that last life times and never get old or break. I have two friends that i strongly believe I will stay friends with my whole life. Because no matter how often we talk, we just always pick up where we left off. and I love that.

Always stay true to yourself and always do what you believe is the right thing, and you will go far in life.

Peace && Love,
Alyssa

Susses!

I learned today, that you cant accomplish anything unless you fail at least once. You cant be truly happy until you have hurt. You cant love, if you have never hated, and you cant learn if you don't listen. I learned recently also that not everyone is going to love you, but the one person that should always love you is yourself. You cant get anywhere in life if you cant love yourself enough to believe in yourself. Be confident, be brave, bold, trustworthy,loving, kind and honest. And always remember the sky is the limits. We have no limits in life, only creations we make in our minds.
A trying time is never a time to quit trying, Live by it!

This was what I was talking about how I always have something to say, I'm beginning to like this blog thing alot. even though I know I don't have alot of readers. ha ha, well I better go take a shower and go to bed. Its already almost 11! where does all my time go I often wonder?!?!

Yay tomorrow I'm going to the gymnastics tour!
I'm really hoping i get to meet both Shawn Johnson && Nastia Liukin. That would be like a dream come true! They are such big role models to me.

I'm done writing for the night.
Peace && Love,
Alyssa

UGHH!

I am trying to figure out how to make this whole blog thing work, and im not getting very far. Im blog challenged. I have homework I really should be doing && bestfriends I should be calling. I miss my two best friends, && I miss my linnea! she is the greatest. no questions asked. She is the reason i am half the person I am. LOVEE YOU LINNEA.
Peacee && love,
Alyssaaa

First blogg!

Well im kind of new to this whole blog thing, but I thoght I would get one cause I always seem to have something to say. My name is Alyssa, Im a 14 year old, freshman && gymnast. Im almost always at gym, its my second home bacially. I lovee it and would never give it up for the world. I was born & raised in the 702(VEGAS!) but I live in Arizona now. pretty much thats it about me! Oh and I have the best friends and family anyone could ask for! I guess I will write for you guys later :)
Peacee && Lovee,
Alyssa